SAA

My husband has not enjoyed going to these meetings.  He has only gone to two and he hasn't shared yet but he has no choice.  One of my "boundaries" is that he has to go until his doctors tell him not to.  I feel that SAA is like a reminder of how much worse it could have been.  As a reminder (not that I need it) my husband was addicted to online porn for the last two years.  During bad days he would spend 13 hours straight on the computer, phone, chat rooms, or sexting. 

He goes to SAA with people who have lost everything due to sex addictions.  David has jeopardized a lot but since it never went past the fantasy world I have chosen for now to stay with him.  If someone used to be overweight and to avoid going back to those unhealthy habits they post a picture of their former selves on the fridge, I feel it is a good reminder of remember what you were and what could be again.

That is how I feel SAA is.  A weekly reminder of why those actions are not welcome in his life anymore.  Pretending that these last two years never happened is not the answer. 

And on a venting side note...due to bad weather last week his Phych appt has been delayed until next month.  Sigh.  I feel like something is working against me getting him to the doctor.